LitigationBids.com & The Allen’s – Oh BABY! – 7.14.16

LitigationBids.com & The Allen’s” is our weekly journal of what it’s like for us to start a family, balance careers and grow a startup business.  We are Brad and Nicole Allen and we’d like to welcome you to our fun & crazy life. Hopefully our little stories will provide some positive moments in your day!

 

Oh BABY! – by N.A.

Finally, I was able to get our daughter down for an afternoon nap.  I look at my watch, but who am I kidding my watch battery has been dead for months, so I run out to look at the microwave or oven for the time. Halfway there it hits me; I can just look at my cell phone…ugh.  I realize it’s 4:30pm and the only thing I have done today is feed my daughter, change 20 diapers, change her clothes 6 times because she has had a diaper explosion or spit up on both of us. Needless to say I’m still in the same outfit. I’m technically on maternity leave from my day job, but I’m in sales and if I don’t keep up I can lose customers not mention not meet my sales number. I have a million things to do and a conference call in 30 minutes…I just tell myself, “I got this”.

To say I’m overwhelmed is an understatement. I find myself standing in my closet with the door closed taking 5 minutes to pull myself together. I focus on what I need to do to avoid my biggest fear; the fear of failure.  How do I not fail as a mother, wife, co-worker and business partner. I’ll never have it 100% figured out, but I have an almost 5 week old that’s waking up.  I look at myself in the mirror and a rush of calm takes over me, as I think about how thankful I am to have the life I do.  As my thoughts drift toward my amazing husband and healthy baby….I realize I’m not alone and I know WE’ve got this!